another bit about Zoë’s post:
"When you suffer from this, the small windows of opportunity you have that you feel like you have the energy to and self-worth enough to try and take steps to change things, to want something more than feeling like you barely have your head above water, those chances and that motivation is fucking *rare*."
i’ve always likened it to flowers for algernon. dull and dumb as a baseline, with flashes of okayness, better than okayness, that i can do anything that normal people do and more, knowing all the time it won’t last…then the inevitable spin back into gray. sometimes i wonder how i’ve done anything at all. but i see us making art, plenty of wonderful, life-affirming art, art that helps others and helps ourselves. it keeps me going, knowing i’m not alone. and neither are you.
I know and love too many people with depression to believe that it’s something that’s shameful to talk about or to acknowledge. I want them alive and I want them here with us. If you have depression I want you alive and here with us. Don’t let the moment take you. Don’t be afraid to get help. The people who love you want you here. Believe it. —
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only today did it hit me how insipid the line “i got soul but i’m not a soldier” is
but it’s fun to sing and THAT’S WHAT COUNTS